As I am standing with tears streaming down my face
You scream at me and ask what I wrong
And when I can’t find the words you scream louder
But here is the truth
90% of the time I feel lonely and scare
The other 10% I feel ok and strong
But everyone sees it the other way
Because I learned to stand on shaking legs
To glare at the world through tears
But that isn’t me
It never was
And as you scream louder the real me is dying to find the words
But when you don’t even understand how you are hanging on to life
How am I supposed to tell you what it feel like
To describe a perminantly broken heart
To feel innocence ripping from you
When darkness is your friend
And I sleep for half the day
Because when I sleep I don’t feel
And that is all I really want right now
To not feel…