What I can’t forgive you for (Poem #85)

I stood up the other day,

but I couldn’t look you in the eye,

because you took more than my trust,

you took my friend away,

and that is what I can’t forgive you for…

Close your lips (poem #10)

Please stop,

Just don’t even try anymore,

You don’t know me darling,

You don’t know my life…

So before you open your mouth,

and start to spread lies about my life,

look at the facts…

The last time we talked was years ago,

The only things you see that I say are on social media,

and the stories you hear are from people who don’t care,

don’t like me,

or just don’t understand me…

So please just close your precious lips,

and focus on something more important to you.

Because I shouldn’t be…

because you aren’t important to me….

But I forgive you don’t worry,

because I don’t live in the past….

and that is were you are to me now…

In my past….

And you will never be a part of my future,

or the beautiful thing I will become…

So it is your lose hun….

But for your own sake,

stop the lies,

close your mouth,

open your mind,

and move on…

How I feel…(poem #9)

Please talk to me,

See that I have feeling too,

That even though you don’t understand it doesn’t mean I don’t care,

It just means that I don’t know how to tell you what I feel,

Because everything is all mixed up in my head,

And nothing makes sense to me,

But something makes sense no matter what,

That even through this emotional mess I am in…

I need you to be willing to listen,

To hold my hand,

And uplift my soul,

And just know that no matter how bad I hurt you…

I still care…..

I….I…just don’t know how to tell you what I need or feel….