Daddy doesn’t like the piercings,
Says I am telling young men that I will do things,
That I am making an image I don’t understand of myself,
He doesn’t like the tattoos,
Says I will regret the ink,
That I am ruining my beauty…
Daddy you don’t understand,
The innocent beauty you are holding on to was taken from me at thirteen,
The metal doesn’t take away my ability to consent,
and by you stating that I am making an image of myself you made and excuse for the man you claimed you would kill when I told you what he did to me,
Daddy you hate the idea of someone’s hands touching me,
but you never asked what I wanted.
Daddy you don’t see that I use the ink and needles to replace the blade of a knife,
that I would rather make something beautiful out of the pain.
And daddy I thought you would be proud of me
because it is easier to explain a tattooed and pierced daughter
than one with scares and blood running down her arms.
Daddy why can’t you see past the ink and the metal,
Daddy let go of the little girl you think I am,
because I haven’t been a little girl for a long time,
Daddy why can’t you see that this is something much bigger than you will ever understand,
Daddy why can’t you accept ink stains on porcelain skin over blood stains on a broken heart?