Believe (Poem #86)

My brain keeps telling me that I am not worth it for you to deal with,

My brain keeps telling me that I will never be pretty enough to make you be proud to be with me,

My brain keeps telling me that my body type isn’t perfect enough to be sexy in your eyes,

My brain keeps telling me that my breast and butt are still too small to make other jealous that you have me,

My brain keeps telling me that I will never be smart enough to be successful enough to support us,

My brain keeps telling me that tomorrow isn’t worth it, because you will probably leave,

My brain keeps telling me that I am not enough and that I will never be,

My brain keeps telling me all these lies…

So my brain keeps telling me all these things,

Yet you remind me that all these things are lies,

And today….today I decided to believe you!

What I can’t forgive you for (Poem #85)

I stood up the other day,

but I couldn’t look you in the eye,

because you took more than my trust,

you took my friend away,

and that is what I can’t forgive you for…

If this poem could fix this home, I would read it everyday…(Poem #84)

My family is falling apart,

and I have to just stand back in watch,

as the lawyers scream to be heard,

and the silent agony spreads,

as I watch the world crumble under my feet,

and all you two care about is who gets what….

BUT WHO GETS ME?!?!

WHAT AM I WORTH?!?

Don’t make your divorce split me in two,

I’m not the house,

you can buy a new one of those,

I’m not a car,

you can’t buy insurance that will fix me,

I’m your child,

the one you grew up holding onto your support,

and now the ground I loved is splitting at it’s fault line,

and your daughter cries out for your lawyers to put down the pen,

and for you two to see that I can’t be in the middle of your fighting anymore,

I’m your child,

it’s time you two start acting like my parent,

and parent yourself….

R.I.P. my bunny love (Poem #83)

The hardest part about a pet passing away,

is not being able to comfort them,

or to hear them say goodbye,

you just have to know that they love you,

and that you did your best,

and that you were their whole life,

and that there will never be anything more important to them than you were.

So I must say goodbye my Midnight,

may you rest in peace,

I love you my fuzzy bunny,

and I know you loved me.

The tears we must cry…(Poem #82)

I know it is late,

and that nothing makes sense,

and that tears streaming down my face are just streams of confusion,

but I can’t help it,

I can’t hold it in,

the tears must fall,

and I must cry,

but for tonight will you hold me tight,

so that my tears will be the only thing falling apart.

I already know(Poem #81)

I don’t understand why you don’t get it

I don’t want to see your face,

I don’t want to hear your voice,

or speak your name!

Let alone sit across from you,

look into your cold eyes,

and listen as you say those lies,

that I wanted this,

That somehow this is all my fault!

I don’t need  you to say it,

I already know,

the lies are screamed in my face,

and they drip down the mirrors,

as my tears stain my face,

I can already see,

You throwing this in my face is unnecessary,

because I already can’t forgive me.